Worked and sacrificed in vain

Sigh where do i even start.

They made me leave college when im nearly graduating during my 5th year course and made me take over the Family Business of running a pharmacy since my older brother was killed earlier that year( Sadly, Justice still was not achieved 8 years now). From 2018-2024 i worked for no salary since they didn't offer to pay me and i saw that the business was struggling, late 2024 i started getting payed at 190+usd /Month, Late 2026 when i have saved enough to finish my college degree and expressed to them that i wanted to work and migrate overseas as that was my dream, they gave me impossible and toxic conditions before letting me enroll again which i can't accept. That was nearly 3 weeks ago, they asked me to leave the house in an hour, so in an hour i packed a week worth of clothes and a little savings and im trying to find my place in the world again as a grown ass person with no COE( they wont provide one) no payslip, no degree, no anything and i have been disinherited from everything sadly, without the support of my partner i would have probabaly just ended everything. It's hard finding work when everyone wants you to be atleast a college graduate.

Was i in the wrong? Or were my parents really toxic?

Should i have just followed all their decisions being unable to decide for myself?

Idk why but after being kicked out, literally everything is becoming a wall, getting beaten over and over, like for example the date i left, the day after that, all the roads were flooded for atleast a week. Which always make me come back to the question that should i have just stayed a puppet?

All my younger brothers gets to pursue their dreams and become college graduates, while the one time i expressed to finish my studies, they instantly try to control and manipulate me. Life is too cruel, i dont even know how long i can stay optimistic anymore.

All my hard worked, all the sacrifices i gave. All the opportunities i gave up. Is it really over for me? Is there no coming back from this? Am i really just as uselessnas they thought? All these thoughts keep on haunting me each and every day.