Son of a gun

Up, up, up and down.Turn, turn, turn around Round, round, round about, and over again

Up, up, up and down, turn, turn, turn around Round, round, round about normal again.

I went to sleep that night. No over thinking, no bullshit. I did come to the conclusion that I have always asked you why you talk to me ( I don't know). Why do you have a problem with being liked (no answer). You do what you always do, turn it around on me. I didn't start the conversation, you did. Then I was forced to defend my position. When's your turn. I like how you use the words that came out of my mouth, as if there was some sort of clever attachment to it. I'm the one that told you I didn't know if I liked you or the idea of you. So, I was getting to know you. Then you proceeded to tell me, what I like, what I don't like, and who I am. It was my self reflection that brought you to that statement. I did not bring up the topic of relationships or anything else. You did, inadvertently. I was just laying in bed being asked questions. Funny thing, the reason I dislike the person we spoke of, and was never into them was because I dated two fucking people for over a year and a half combined. No one knew. Yet this person proceeded to allow others to labor under a misapprehension. I even spoke to your now exgirlfriend of the person in which I was first dating when I got here and you. The next person I told you about was someone I an still in contact with, he and I dated 1 year or 1 1/2 after I started working there. So, I hate the fucker cause he led everyone to believe there was something going on. No, I was nice and I paid for it. Fuck that, never again. So asking me, why not him, he's big, was a ridiculous question. I hate him for multiple reasons. 1) when I told him no, he basically told me, I'm going to make you. 2) he lied about me and legitimately stalked me. 3) he has in fact cheated on every single one of his exgirlfriends, triangulates them, and becomes obsessed over a person. 4) when his obsessiveness comes out, he violates your boundaries and does not give a shit. It's all about what he wants, you're not a person you're an object. 5) pay attention cuz this goes hand in hand with number four, no accountability for his actions and plays the victim. 6) no moral compass 7) shitty work ethic 8) consistently changes his story or the narrative to suit himself. 9) punished me for his own misgivings. This includes stalking, violating boundaries, phone hacking ( how else did he manage to call my ex and my family), and a myriad of other things besides being fucking base and ugly, both on the inside and out. So, I know I'm still upset and angry at the shit he pulled. Don't ever ask me why not him. You aren't paying very much attention or you don't believe me(I have proof), if your asking these things. I think you will eventually back me into a corner, until you get the desired result that you want from me, which is to hate you. This is what I think you want.