Why is this always the case?

I'm playing USSR 11.0. In almost 3-4 out of 5 matches that i play i lose. In those games i'm almost always first in my team and the difference in points between me and the 2nd player is around 300-1000 points, sometimes bit more. By the time i die first time in the match, half the team is gone and we get stomped till the round ends. Is this just bad luck on my end or is it that gaijin hates me for some reason?