I am lazy, complacent and unhealthy.

Everyday i regret my actions, planning things for the next day. Starting the day early, working out, running, having a good schedule, but I spiral into my bad habits.

I over ear, I spend an unhealthy amount of time watching reels and stupid stuff on reddit. I just want to watch reels, videos in YouTube, movies all the time. I'm not productive at all.

I want to lose weight, workout , but I have never given this a single try in my life. I imagine the days where I'm working out, getting fit, going on dates but I'm not even trying to start getting better.

How can I break this cycle?? I start but I spiral back...I have bpd which worsens my relationships, gives me stress, and i i overeat again and again. Damn it