Need urgent help idk even know whats going on

Been losing my plot for quite some time long and idk what to do no more so fast forward i already quit this job before but found myself back to it and been here since April and so damn toxic its basically it’s a coffee shop going on and all and i only get a position as dishwasher which was the first red flag and been trying to get promoted from that position because everyone there was like looking down on you which was the second red flag and no mister what they keep be like don’t let him learn ee don’t want him promoted which is another red flag and the list goes on and on and last time they add more time which my shift start at3pm and ends at midnight and it’s an hour walk back to where i live and with my borderline i just couldn’t took all that heat so i put my plan to just add few months and just leave right and i was having my hope on working morning shift but they said no why basically they was like the new coworker don’t agree on night shift i was like what’s left here for
me and i decided to go im leaving this week probably less cause of the problems keep on stacking up on me but idk if im right or no i just keep blaming myself and i feel desosiated and just disconnected and idk what to do even the salrey there is 200$ which idk what you can do with that plus i was just there to save so i can start my career