I’m stranded in a foreign country married to an abuser

My husband just left me home alone to go play golf after screaming so hard in my face that he spit on me, pushed me down to the floor and out of the bathroom just to not talk to me, and broke his gaming controller from slamming it down so hard on the desk. I’m 2 months pp and he won’t stop bringing up how fat I am and how it’s disgusting. Yes I am the heaviest I’ve ever been, 210 lbs, 5’9. But I personally do not think I’m so fat that I’m disgusting to look at. I go to the gym almost everyday and eat semi healthy. I do enjoy sweet things more than usual bc I’m breastfeeding but I still do also eat tons of the good stuff every day too. He believes I’m lazy and don’t take care of the house properly. Even though my day is completely full everyday. I hardly get on my phone anymore besides when breastfeeding. I sometimes don’t even have enough time to finish cleaning everything before he comes home. So if I leave a sunglasses case on the counter a few days, or if we have fruit flies that suddenly appear in the middle of the boiling summer, or if his one shirt that stubbornly clings to odors smells slightly off, or if the fridge is not neat and tidy, if i accidentally missed a bowl that had a stain on it still after being in the dishwasher, or if I don’t have dinner ready right when he comes home, etc etc etc the list is very long of his dislikes and requests/demands.., he will scream and yell how much of a crap wife I am and how different from each other we are. He brags about how he’s so neat and type A yet I’m cleaning up his mess behind him, the hypocrisy HA. I do not dare point out the hypocrisy or he will yell and scream me into submission and apologies. I am stuck here, I am absolutely stranded and it is ALL MY FAULT. I am an idiot and so screwed. The country I am in will favor the native spouse obviously. As he has the money, the job, the house, and like an idiot sandwich I have pretty much nothing. I did have a work from home job before I gave birth, but all my money went to bills. I cannot initiate divorce. I will lose my ba bies. My husband doesn’t even have enough time to care for them since he works and commutes very long hours, he’ll just take them to spite me and stick them with his elderly mom who can’t even go down an escalator without falling to her bum. I’m basically waiting for the day he finally dumps me or I somehow do a good enough job to satisfy him and make him happy. I can’t tell anyone in my life what’s going on bc I can’t deal with the pressure of their reactions and they won’t understand how screwed I am legally if things get to divorce. So here I am teary eyed alone on my couch hoping my ba bies have a long nap so I can recover emotionally. if you even read this far thanks for listening to me ramble on