He was so good that…

I completely lost interest in sex and pleasuring myself now that he’s gone. Before getting back with him, I pleasured myself daily if not twice a day. With him, I had the best sex of my entire life so far. He was the hottest boy I have ever touched. We had dated before, kept a friendship for 2 years and got back together for a bittersweet 2 months.

Hes with another girl now, and i have felt sick to my stomach for almost a week straight. I want his body back so bad. The chemistry was amazing and now that he’s giving it to someone else I want to die. I have gone through processing the broken heart, wondering if he ever loved me since he got with a new woman, and now what’s left is not being able to feel any desire whatsoever.

The depressing thing is he also said when we were together that he no longer felt anything pleasuring himself because sex with me was that good. How could he just leave for some girl from back in high school? And when will I ever be able to think about pleasure and sex again and not feel despair.