For how many of you agp was a necessity for survival? Why makes a person trans?

When I was a kid i wanted to explore girl stuffs. But those things were under girly territory. Being girly guy meant isolation, loneliness.

That's why I became masculine. Even now that's what I am doing.

From where I am from no body cares if a person is a femboy or sissy. Guys like us will be alone and isolated and ignored. Guys will not talk to you because girls want their attention and encourage them to hate guys like me and girls also make fun of me and never date me.

Because of this being masculine is also a part of survival.

Which makes me wonder if I am trans?

Maybe we all are?

The old agps might also share the same story. They repressed to survive and when they finally reached the age where they no longer need to please anyone they transition.

But I also feel like I am also not trans.

Because what if it wasn't gatekeepen? What if i want exposed to performance femininity at young age? Maybe I would have been different.

Because I was exposed to performance femininity I thought I wanted to be a girl too. Because it's infront of me. I was how adults become girls.

Incase if it's confusing there are two kinds of femininity. One in being and another performative.

I think a lot of us who are into stuff like sissiification simply wanted to perform femininity but couldn't because of survival.

If you really notice sissification and girly stuffs are actually the same. Sissiification without the male and sex elements is just becoming a girl.

So what is a trans ? Feeling like you are a female? Or just a person who like that "performance" femininity and want to do that?

This is why i secretly crossdressed too because I couldn't be a girl in real world.