Patut tak I wait for marriage, or experience it at least once?

Hii, I F3+ I’m getting older, and sepanjang hidup I, I tak pernah ada apa-apa physical atau sexual relationship dengan mana-mana lelaki. Benda yang ringan-ringan pun tak pernah, let alone sex.
Honestly, I do have the desire. I memang curious dan kadang-kadang terfikir macam mana rasanya to be intimate with someone. Tapi ideally, I memang nak first time I dengan husband I sendiri — someone I’m married to and genuinely love.
The problem is, sampai sekarang I masih belum jumpa jodoh.

Sometimes I wonder… patut ke I just continue waiting, walaupun mungkin I akan kekal virgin sampai tua atau sampai mati? Or should I just experience it once in my life, especially since I’m getting older?
Part of me really wants to try it. Tapi dalam masa yang sama, I takut. Takut menyesal, takut emotionally attached, takut dengan consequences, and honestly, takut sebab I memang tak pernah buat benda macam ni before.
I’m not asking whether sex before marriage is morally right or wrong. I cuma nak tahu perspective orang tentang waiting until marriage vs experiencing it at least once.

If you were in my position, what would you choose, and why? Someone suruh i post sini pulak so yeah. And please, don’t DM me offering sex or asking to meet up. I’m not looking for random hookups or anyone to “teach” me. I’m genuinely asking for opinions and perspectives, not an offer. But if you genuinely want to get to know me and have a proper conversation, I’m open to it.