How do you know you have completely checked out of the marriage?

My husband and I have a rocky marriage and if you look at my post history, there have been times of sexual coercion and little to no financial freedom. I wanted to go abroad and do my masters. I had a whole life planned. But I was willing to compromise all that to marry him. We resolved the issues by talking about it but I feel like the relationship is strained one way or the other. I am not able to find the attraction again and honestly, we are more friends than we are spouses. I’ve come to a point where idek what I am doing.

Tl;dr: I feel like I am emotionally checked out of the marriage but idk for sure.