Everytime i use again it reminds me why I always come back..

Im addicted to opiates without a doubt but I occasionally go months without them usually with the help of sublocade etc.

Life was ok recently i was motivated, socializing consistent at the gym but im unemployed and I was bored everyday so of course I ordered 1g and chipped away over the past week. It made the days enjoyable almost and content. Haven't had any since yesterday and its possibly withdrawal talking but I keep thinking it just makes life that much more bearable especially if your in a shit situation and modern life is imo. Especially people with mental illnesses. But im not stupid i know this can make your life 100x worst.

How do you realise its not the answer even when it feels like it is.