Dark feminine energy but not feeling it?

Hello everyone,

Feel free to tell me if this post doesn't belong here lol

I am very new to this and super surface level but I've noticed that most of my chart placings people claim i have a dark feminine energy and whatever but I just dont feel it. So I started my period with the eclipse as well and saw that it means I have a dark feminine energy and a red witch.

My chart placements are Gemini Sun, Virgo Rising, Aries Moon, Gemini Venus.

I guess these are stupid generalizations and I shouldn't let it get to me and might not have much to do with spirituality but I guess Im struggling to find my calling and how to maximize my energy. I just feel kind of lost on how to be the best version of myself.

Im also into manifestation. I just want to improve myself and be more in touch with my spirituality. Im also new to astrology and just recently started taking everything more seriously.

I am interested in medicine as a career but dont know if its right for me. I feel so many things pointing me in that direction as well. I guess everything is overwhelming and making me feel lost.