I want to dress like a girl and get pegged

Basically I’m 20M and I’ve got these fantasies but I think they might be too far and I’m worried I’m porn rotted.

The main fantasy is this, being dressed up like a girl and getting pegged 😅 I wanna have a women dress me up in thigh highs, panties, skirt, bar, top, makeup, lipstick, and wig and then I wanna get pegged, I want her to call me names like good boy, baby boy, good girl, and maybe a feminine name which would be Charlotte.

The weird thing is I don’t want to do this with a girlfriend only like a pro dom, but I really wanna do it. But I feel like at 20 I shouldn’t be into this stuff and I’ve never had a girlfriend and I’m still a virgin so I’m worried I’m messing it up, especially since I’ve been into it for about 2 years already now, idk if this is normal of I’m messed up and porn rotted. I haven’t watched any porn for a few weeks and I still have these fantasies.