I attract the diabiolically evil men and I hate it.

The man i had my first everything with was extremely racist. He would try burning me with hot sewing needles, assault me in public, use threatening other woman to make me comply, but the craziest part is that he FAKED MULTIPLE PERSONALITY DISORDER to mess with my head. Said I didn't need friends because I had all the different versions of him.

I've had a man dress me up in his mom's old clothes. I had assumed it would be a normal hand me down situation but he was really attracted them. After living with them I have my theories about their relationship behind closed doors.

I had a man who genuinely felt like perfection. Like proof people can change, grow, and be better. We had been in and out of each other's lives for years. After a particularly bad break he swoop3d in and played the hero. Said he didn't watch corn, he didn't keep old hookups around, was ready for marriage and a future, worked my walls down. Dated me for a year long distance taking my money (I just got out the shelter) in "emergencies. Called me all the time. Had me in his live stream comments and made it clear I was his girl. Well. He had a girlfriend from five years, multiple others on the side, he lived with her, was spending my money on her, and even used to tell me about the sex they just had without me realizing that's what he was doing. Example: "it's so hot when a girl squirts" but I dont do that... she does. Told me he didn't care about me at all, and it was just for sex. Which is crazy because we ONLY HAD SEX ONCE in over a year. Still fucks with my mind.

I've had a guy get me drunk, have sex with me, and call me by another girls name

And finally the guy who "loved me" but always wanted proof we had sex to show his friends. The last time we had sex in the engineering room at his school, he finished, and made me walk home. Blocked me after.

I know I have some responsibility for letting them in my life and not seeing the signs but fuck. Why me. My friends do not have these experiences.