32 [m4m/mf] NC bi fit guy looking to plan a 'gay-cation' with someone similar

I'm a curious, closeted guy who has had a couple of experiences with men in the past, and I find myself single (3 years now) and have been frequently imagined giving in to the desire again. I've always had this fantasy of going away, out of state to get away from my small-town, and having the chance to let go of inhibitions and dip my toes again with a man. Whether it's in a beach town, a lake house, or in the mountains, I just want to plan something out with a cool guy who is DL. Call it a vacation from being straight...a gay-cation. I think about meeting new people and coming out to them as gay. One scenario that makes me melt (as it does with many men in my situation) is confessing these desires to a woman, or even engaging in sexual acts with a man while a woman bares witness.

Ideally we would chat for some time and figure out if we would be a match, and if so, eventually we could plan a fun excursion. A long weekend perhaps....

I lean more towards being a bottom and I'm a wholesome guy who would prefer to meet up with someone who can communicate well and shows patience and understanding

:) Fingers crossed and hope to chat soon!