Am new here and kinda confused

Am 20m egyptian living in an arab country. I've never had sex b4. My problem is that idk to what gender am attracted , whether am gay or straight. I do love women romantically but am hella attracted to men sexually. Like i cant stop thinking of getting penetrated or giving blowjobs yet i dont want to have a boyfriend to love. I know its confusing but thats whats in my mind