Microwaved combination pizza rolls breaking my vegetarian streak.

We used to have a car. But bad mechanic work, nicked hose, blew the transmission after blowing through money to already fix it, blew through even more to be told it was worthless now. 

5k down the drain so fast.

Not having a car complicates everything.

Here I am dealing with a domino effect.

We live with our landlord, she hates my partner and causes issues if he’s out of the room to do things.

I’m the de facto cook because of it.

I hurt my leg- dealing with a nasty most intense bruise I’ve ever had and even standing hurts.

Microwaved pizza rolls Amazon ordered to us because we don’t have a vehicle, and I don’t have a way to meal prep with how intense the bruise is right now, I basically need to be laying down in order for the pain to subside somewhat.

If we had a car, jobs would’ve been easier to obtain- we lost several chances because of how far they are and just not compatible with public transport.

It complicates moving in the future pretty drastically.

Part of the time I can keep my head up and appreciate what good things we are moving towards, I’m selling personal belongings we lugged with us, overall taking an interest in creativity like food experimentation.

But then there’s these moments, like where a bruise on my leg derails everything, I’m currently taking a break in between microwaving each half of the bag of pizza rolls because I already am disabled with an ankle injury.

Surgery is soon, everything is daunting, I’m on edge.

And I really wish we could get in our old car and just drive to a park or a river not far from here and enjoy a view that’s different than the next door neighbors.

Soon with surgery, my life is going to be a nine by nine room with a window covered in a plastic privacy screen that we can’t remove because it was there when we moved in. 

Need to keep my head up. 

Also need a therapist but that’s sadly out of the question for awhile.

My life is going to be a 9x9 room soon