Breaking point

I am at my wits end, I’m so tired.

I can hear my baby screaming crying ‘mummy cuddle you, mummy cuddle you’ (meaning cuddle me) while my husband says ‘lie down please’ to him over and over again. I tried to go in and comfort him but he said ‘do not sabotage this just because you can’t handle a bit of discomfort’ so I just laid down. I feel absolutely pathetic.

It’s 4am. He woke up at 23:30 and has not gone back to sleep. It’s the second time this week he has done this. He’s 19 months old and only ever been fed to sleep and coslept. Husband can’t handle it. This is the result. Will probably delete this as if he somehow reads it he will 100% know it’s me. Just don’t know what to do at this point.