Deformity tragedy

I am 19 but unfortunately getting a girl to like me due to my deformity is nearly impossible. I have all this pent up motivation and almost anger from the pain of never getting access to love and I use it in my finance studying-that helps alot. everyday I walk by a pretty girl and she is like a ghost to me who doesnt get the chance to feel her love. But am I just coping- Lemme know.