18 m when you get to the point when you’re just fucking ready to give up

I don’t know what to do anymore I’ve had friends leave and then come back and it’s hard with the work I do where I can’t always hang out and be with them and they’re the type of friends or if they hear anything bad about anyone they don’t ask the person they just take secondhand information and just fucking leave and I just want some new friends because they’re not worth having in my fucking life