I dont know what I am.

first of all, sorry for my bad english.

So recently Ive been questioning my gender, and honestly, idk what I am yet, but I think I might be a girl.

I seriously hate being a man. I hate my body, my name, my voice, my appearance, and a lot of things. but I'm still too young to do anything about it. I'm 15 years old and my parents are 100% conservative ( maybe 125%), and I have no friends I feel comfortable telling about this.

Ive been dealing with a lot of dysphoria. I really like to listen to music though. its something that let me forget about everything and feel a little better.

also, I'm working at a supermarket and almost every one there is transphobic. so I'll never tell them about this.

Whenever I'm alone, I start feeling worse and overthinking everything. and sometimes I have rally bad times. But whenever someone calls me by my name, it gets even worse almost instantly.

idk what I'm expecting about posting this. I guess I just wanted to tell someone, because I don't really have anyone I can talk to about this in real life.