28F | help me move on from a situationship

The title says it all. I fear I have committed the ultimate crime: catching feelings for my situationship.

We started this with no attachment, no feelings. Strictly casual.
Guess who violated the terms and conditions? This clown right here.

We met a few times, we kissed. cuddled a little. And by a little….I mean enough to completely destroy my emotional stability), and somehow my brain went

“Hmm yes, I would like to develop feelings for this man.”

“It’s just a silly crush.”

“Wait..he’s really cute??”

Then I caught myself waiting for his message everyday while kicking my feet up in the air and blushing like a silly stupid stray dog.

Now here I am, with a fully developed frontal lobe, fully aware he doesn’t feel the same way, watching him slowly losing interest while I emotionally prepare for my own funeral.

How do I know that if I confess my feelings, I will get 100% rejected? Well

\- he did say he’s not someone who wants to commit in any relationship since its troublesome  
\-I am definitely NOT his type

I genuinely really, really, REALLY like this guy. Unfortunately, I also have enough awareness to know that this isn’t going anywhere. Especially since the message starting to get really dry (like dude, I get it you don’t have feelings for me lol don’t make it so obvious) (literally in tears as I’m writing this) So I’m trying to get over him before I die from embarrassment.

If you have tips on how to emotionally uninstall someone from your brain, please leave a DM. 👁️👅👁️

Things about me:

•	Professional clown  
•	Bachelor in Clownery (Hons)   
•	Can be depressing sometimes, but I promise I have a good heart   
•	Caring to a slightly concerning degree  
•	Not a good driver, but I can drive if you have life insurance  
•	Will probably overthink for 3–5 business days  
•	Currently trying to heal from a man who technically never even dated me but I dated him in my head.   
•	Honestly, I don’t know what else to put here. I’m cute (maybe?) (beauty is subjective) 

What will you get out of this:

\- nothing

Anyways, come save me from my own feelings and be my knight in shining armour.

Also, if you’re going to ask me to confess, the answer is NO. I would rather bash my head against a rock and then jump off a bridge and let my body slowly gets eaten by anchovies than get rejected by someone I genuinely like because I literally could not handle another heartbreak. I will keep this secret to my grave ☺️

I’m a clown, but I’m not that brave. Hehe