:l

I feel like I have no one, all my “friends” who i used to call “Best friends” are just there physically and I guess hang out with them like once a month but there’s no emotional connection between me and them. I’m only friends with them because we’re in the same class or talked to each other and I’m clearly nothing special to them, not a second choice, not even an option in the first place but i’m too tired of acting desperate to socialise with them. My close friends I have an emotional bond with all left my school and I crave physical presence , leaving me with people who know nothing about me. Coming back home from school to get on my phone and waiting for them to respond to my texts or hop on the game for an absurdly unhealthy amount of time to distract and cope with the loneliness knowing that the moment I walk into the school gates I will have no one to go to when i’m sad, stressed, angry or lonely.