Just lost all motivation in life... Again

First of all i want to mention that i am / was in therapy. In the eyes of my therapist I'm more or less done. I got a good streak recently, several months without an all too deep ditch. Was pretty proud of it.

But the last 3-4 weeks broke me again... Lot of stress from work (which i could cancel out with a well timed vacation), lot of stress with friends (or people I call that even if they are apparently not...) and a recent crash in my dating life (met a person that basically got all i ever wanted, we had some really great dates, she told her best friend, whom I also good with, that it's such a great time with me, only to be ignored now and left aside...).

So all in all: life's shit right now. And i have the feeling all the therapy and stuff i went through in the last few years doesn't really matter... A lot changed, but it doesn't really effect the outcome of my life. My life stays the same purgatory as before. Not quite hell (i am well aware that there's a lot of room downwards) but also far from heaven...

I don't really know why I'm writing this... I just need someone to talk to, maybe some nice words and uplifting stuff / memes / images of cute animals... I don't know, I'm just tired... Cooking the same three meals on repeat, doing nothing and wasting on the couch all day...