Am I unreasonable?

So, for background. I have started my therapy process and I have got an official c-ptsd diagnosis. I have worked really hard on myself and I want to get better. I really try to get better at regulating my emotions and knowing and understanding my triggers. Taking responsibilities with that.

We have also been to couples therapy. One thing we have been working on is when I am sad, triggered, some emotions, that he dont need to fix those, or sometimes I end up "comforting" him, kind of. So I been avoiding showing my emotions to him.

Or somehow we end up in a fight becouse he takes things personally and end up defending himself or just leave me be and I feel abandonded.

But, its been better and he has worked on himself also. There been many times that he just wrap his arms around me and just been there for me. I have slowly started to trust on him and the support he gives.

Well, today went really bad. I have for a different reasons struggled lately with really low mood and anxiety. I still try my best to function.

I think I’ve been in some kind of freeze response lately, and this morning when I woke up I had really hard time to even talk, or get up from bed.

Spouse tried to ask what to get from the store and all kinds of things we should do and I couldn't answer, I tried to tell that I struggle, and I wish he could use less words becouse I felt just owerwhelmed.

He just kept going and I felt even worse and I hit my phone. And he said that i shouldn't be doing that.

I felt like something snapped in me and I started crying. No response from him. No hug, no nothing. It felt so triggering and so bad and difficult. So I asked him to leave me be then and he just left. I felt like a trapped child in my adult body and said really dumd things, like I just couldn't reach my adult rational brain. And I just left to wonder that am I too much, too difficult? I just can't handle this anymore when I don't know what I get from my spouse. It feels like it's just too much on top of everything else. I can't take this anymore. So tired of everything. What is reasonable support from a spouse?