18F gooning for an entire day on adderall

i’ve been obsessed with taking adderall and gooning my pussy lately. last night i bought more and took 2 pills. they kicked in an hour later and i started touching my clit, rubbing it in circles and getting myself wet and ready. then, i started pounding my dripping wet pussy with my 6inch toy. after gooning for about an hour, i decided i wanted to do something else, so i kept my dildo in my cunt while i say at my desk and journaled. i wrote about many things, including lots of sexual fantasies and ways i want to get used. i wrote about my addiction to gooning and my need for male attention. i wrote about how i love to show off and be a whore for anyone who wants me. i wrote like this for an hour, in nothing but a bra and a baggy, unbuttoned flannel. my cunt was dripping down my toy all the way onto my chair. my chair is fake leather so the dildo wouldn’t suction, so i had no opportunity to ride my toy as much as i wanted to. i just had to grind down and clench my pussy around my toy whenever i felt horny.
early on, within the first half hour, i felt like i had to squirt but i didn’t wanna make a mess, so i went to the bathroom to quickly finger myself and let my squirt out. but after that, i was back to cockwarming.
after soaking my toy for an hour, i went back on my bed, dildo still shoved in my hole, and played with my pussy for three hours. i had to stay quiet because my mom was asleep in the room next to me, but i kept letting little moans slip. i hope she didn’t hear the noises of the dildo slapping against my sopping wet pussy. by the time i finished it was the middle of the night, but i still wanted more. i still hadnt cum, and i wasn’t planning on cumming for a long time. adderall has convinced me to turn into a forever-edge slut. i love gooning, i hate cumming.
with my swollen, sensitive, and used pussy still begging for more, i decided to write more about my sexual fantasies with my dildo still shoved in my pussy. i stayed like this for another two hours.
the feeling of being filled up is addicting. it makes me feel euphoric, like i’m fulfilling my purpose as a woman, as a cocksleeve. the feeling of having a cock, real or fake, shoved up my hole me feel complete. i was made for this. it’s my purpose. i want to spend entire life filled up as a sex slave for whoever wants me. this is the type of stuff i journaled about, all my fantasies and the ways im planning on becoming a better and better whore in the future. i’m only 18 after all, i still have years and years of slut behavior ahead of me.
after that, i took a break. i had been gooning for 7 hours at that point, and wanted to do something else. i still wasnt tired, because of the adderall, so i put on some music and did some work. i was still horny, though. so after about two hours of listening to music and working on mindless projects, i decided to start gooning again. i only had an hour before i had to go back home to my dads house (i was at my moms house, my parents are split), so i figured i’d make the best of my time. i shoved my dildo into my already dripping pussy and raped my hole until my mom was knocking on my door, rushing me to leave. i threw the dildo in my bag, slid my pants back on, and went home, all while still thinking about cock.
when i got home, i STILL felt unsatisfied and empty, so i cleaned my dildo off and rammed in back into my pussy. by now you think i'd be gaping, but my walls were actually quite swollen and tender from all the abuse these past hours. i didn't care, though. it only made me more sensitive, and made the fake cock sliding in and out of my pussy feel even better. i could feel every ridge sliding in and out of my hole. i stayed like this for 6 hours. i was desperate to keep gooning, i would’ve done anything to keep raping my sensitive hole with my toy, but i had to go pick up my boyfriend and spend the rest of the day with him.
the whole time i was with him i was desperate for more adderall and my dildo, but luckily the sexy outfit i mentioned earlier made him want to fuck me after we both got stoned. we can’t do penetration because of personal issues, but i laid in his arms while he kissed and licked all over my body, and he eventually started rubbing my pussy, which had been nonstop dripping wet for 16 hours at this point. the weed helped amplify my horniness, and i moaned with every gentle touch of his hands on my skin. he left late an night, and i took two edibles to help me fall asleep.
i slept for a while, but now its early in the morning and i’m already up and wired on adderall again. i’m planning on spending the whole day gooning my pussy again, even though my walls are sensitive and sore and begging me to give them a break. i’m addicted, i can’t stop. it feels euphoric to fulfill my purpose as a woman, as a cumdump. i’m addicted to journaling while gooning too, writing all my horny thoughts out, getting more and more incoherent the more desperate and gooned out i get.
i’ll post updates on how todays gooning session goes. i’m looking forward to doing anything i can to fulfill my life’s purpose as a cocksleeve and cumdump. i want my entire life to revolve around sex and gooning, i was born to please the men around me.
(i had to remove the exact times i did everything because it wouldn’t let me make this post with timestamps)