25 day T break complete, struggling after mini binge

Hello all. I first started smoking at 16/17 with thc carts. But 18 I was smoking thc carts 24/7 till nearly 20 (I'm 20 now) with the exception of a few month breaks. In feb I ditched carts for an Xmax dry herb vape and hit that everyday instead.

Anyways long story short at the end of July I tried a cart again used it in 3 days n then took a 25 day T break in aims for moderation.

After the 25 days I bought a 3.5 - my dealer doesn't sell less. I had a fat blunt with my friend, watched a storm under a tarp outside - it was fucking beautiful.

The next day ugh, cravings. I loaded up 3 dif bowls on the xmax and called it a day. I was progressively feeling them less and less.

Now today, I have cravings like hell. Debating selling the xmax as its way too convenient. Haven't had any yet but I don't really trust myself right now. Help?