paralyzed and waiting mode

Hi i feel paralyzed to do the things that i know would lead me to where i want to be
I wanna be more productive but i feel like i have so much area in my life that needs upgrade that i feel like a mess, i feel guilty to not have started before and i feel guilty to not starting it right now.

but when im doing something that im proud of, i feel ridiculous to be proud of something small, or sometimes it dont feel good at all cause it made me realise that im not that good at this things etc etc…

I know i should just do one goal to start but idk something feels wrong