I (21M) desperately want to be owned and kept on a tight schedule for gooning but can't make one myself

So ive been a stupid gooner for some time now, love self bondage, breathplay and torture, as well as orgasm control and the thought of denial. I've been controlled online a couple times and during those periods they were amazing, owners who would control my orgasm, when I could or couldn't touch, my ability to pee, what I did, gave me tasks to complete daily, I was their toy and they used me like the toy I deserve to be.

That was a long time ago, life got busy, change of jobs, change of house multiple times, change of lifestyle, but recently I've been getting back into the self bondage, self torture, BDSM life and ive been loving it, I sleep in cuffs and locks on weekends, I try deny myself pleasure, i purchased and occasionally wear a chastity and I dream of being controlled the way I used to.

Due to this resurgence in the obsession, I've been trying to curate a schedule for myself, strict orgasm denial, edging routine, bdsm and self bondage tasks all leading up to 31 days denied orgasm during no nut November (which I've failed the last 5 years wishing days of starting)

I need help, how can I (a pathetic un-owned slut) prepare myself, create a schedule and force myself to focus enough on my duties to follow the schedule and the rules and become the denied toy I am meant to be.