Sharing/ venting (depersonalization)

I had one of the worst episodes in about 2-3 years last night, I felt very close to passing out on the hard floor it was quite scary. I ended up in bed clawing at my face and chest and slapping myself because of how numb my skin was, I couldn't feel anything. I feel like I can't really do anything because my dissociation triggers are everywhere and I have so many, I hate this so much. I can't even sit down to enjoy doing my art or anything crafty my brain won't let me right now. I'm still dissociated but not as badly, I just really hope it goes away soon I feel so awful.