From Ac to JL

Hey j

It’s been a while. I finally have the courage to send you a message. I’m sorry I left you on read after all these years. There’s a number of reasons but I won’t get into it. What I did want to say is… I see that you’re happy with your husband. I’m not gonna lie, but I wish it was me. I wish I could be the one to embrace you. I wish I could be the one to take you out to a skateboard park, and ride with you. I wish I could be the one who’d take you to the ocean to surf with you. I wish I could be the one to hold you, laugh with you, make memories with you. Make music together. Travel the world together. Touch you and kiss you. Make love to you. I want it all with you, J. I wanted it all.

But I won’t message you. Cuz this is just another dream of yours isn’t it.

I know. It stings.

Reach out to me if and when you’re single ok? I always love hearing from you, but I just can’t stomach the pain of not having you within reach. I won’t message you back until then.

Selfishly I wish it happens soon. But unselfishly, I hope you, your husband and son have a good , happy life.

Xoxo
AC