Being a massive college whore

So I kinda tried to gain more confidence and go to frat parties or so .. but honestly I was just a drunk mess that would go to parties with some of the girls and end up going to the dorms alone … but I kept going and kept pushing my luck until I decided one day that I would stay until the end of the party.. which I did … I was drunk and still dancing but I was the only girl left and that’s when 2 boys started dancing with me … I was kinda happy for the attention but the dance turned very sexual very quickly … but I didn’t stop it.. I was a desperate girl who lacked attention so when I finally got some attention . I was just so afraid of ending up alone so I let it happen. I got gropped mid dancing and they were feeling my body… I was a bit worried but I was like I am liked now… until I got pushed to the sofa , undressed and he kinda started fucking me while the other hyped him up .. I was stunned and let it happen … I was confused afraid and conflicted … but I had a hot guy lifting my legs and fucking me . They got my naked fully while they just had their dicks out.. that’s when the other put it in my mouth and kinda fucked it then told me to suck it and I did ….

Then 3 more joined and were like laughing and making fun and so on until I was there naked , fucked by all 5 and covered by all of their cum . And they left while laughing to each other’s and I just layed there feeling used and quite pathetic.. I got the attention I always wanted but not how I wanted it .

I was so confused until the next party I got approached a bit earlier before the end… and gropped and told me to stay late … and it happened again.. it kept happening every weekend ..

Every weekend I feel used and get upset at myself for being used like that and letting it happen .. I lay there naked covered in cum… hearing them laugh and make jokes and use me and leave .. I kinda feel that the attention lasts for the first few minutes then disappears cause during the sex I am just being used and left . But idk why I kept going back. Maybe I was afraid of being alone again… maybe I was hoping one of those hot guys would want me more .. idk to be honest but I kept going back and back and back to just be used