Consequences of being molested.

When i was 15 or so I really liked this girl my same age . I used to go over to her grandmothers house and hang out with her. Her grandmother had custody for some reason.

Well one day the grandma who was probably 65 or so said to me “you really like jennifer don”t you ? i was pretty shy and said she is a good friend. The grandma said i think you want more than a friend but Jenny is too young to have a boyfriend.

The following week I went over to the grandmas house again and she called me into her room. She said she needed help with the zipper on her dress. I was mortified when I unzipped the zipper and she let the dress fall to the floor . I was paralyzed when she told me to sit on the bed. I just did as she told me.

Anyways , she touched me and used her mouth on me and climbed up on me and did her thing. I was embarrassed when I finished fairly quickly.

My problem now is that since then I have always been attracted to much older women. Why is this ? I never wanted this to happen but somehow it changed me.