My dad committed suicide from a while and I am anrgy

It was a very strange moment when I saw him after he committed suicide. didnt expect I will suffer one day from a loss like this.

My father wasn’t the type of easy guy to deal with, he was always angry, always distant from between me and my family (even tho I was fav child). I am not feeling sad because i cannot understand why did he commit it. I know the background but it is something I cannot actual say or tell because it is work related (It is like i signed NDA without actually signing it so I cannot talk about it. My issue is I dont miss him. I am really angry. And now we are dealing with a different things that he was involved in it but we dont have much information. And we feel why are we involved in all this shi.

We are all really angry, sad and we feel like our life has stopped.