[M26] I'm excruciatingly lonely and I just don't know what Todo

Start this off by saying I hope this isn't too deep for this sub but I am not suicidal in any means but it's the closest I've felt to it. My life is a mess, my family life is fucking awful, I'm in-between jobs, My "closest" friends don't even text me anymore. Constantly see on social media of them doing things without me and don't get me wrong I've done everything in my power to make it obvious I'm not doing ok and no one seems to give a single shit. Love life is pretty non existent and I just lost my insurance and I don't even have a therapist to talk to atm. I guess the reason of this post is to just reach out to other people in similar situations and just hopefully find common interests and have good conversations. I'm in desperate need of a distraction 😅