I’m becoming just like my parents.

My parents are Verbally and Physically Abusive. I’ve noticed growing up that I act just like them more often times than not. I have 2 little brothers who I avoid because I get violent and verbally abusive when I’m mad. I get irritated over the smallest things. It’s honestly so embarrassing how I’m becoming like them when I try so hard not to be. A while ago, I accidentally lashed out on my brother (I bought a pack of instant noodles for myself, he told my mom and my mom got really mad at me, so I lashed out on him) and my mom got really mad and tried to punch me and my computer (I have no idea why, she just looks for other things to be mad at when shes mad). I know it was my fault for lashing out but I think it’s a bit ironic how my mom is mad at me for lashing out when I adapted that trait from her. I’m just so ashamed that I’m becoming just like my parents, especially my mom. I wonder how people would think of me if they find out I act like this at home, I just know they would say that they wouldn’t expect me to be like this. I just feel so ashamed and guilty, and I cant even leave yet because im still really young.