Tried making another account and a fursona to “move on” with my life but I’m back here again

I made a whole new internet self as u/magicuserthomas because I felt like I needed to embrace that self and that being trans was ruining my life but after I completed the compulsion it didn’t feel authentic at all and I felt even more confused than ever. I just increased my ocd medicine strength but this compulsion is very stubborn. I have been going to different therapists and tried logging off the internet but nothing seems to work or help and I’m feeling frustrated. I don’t have any irl friends and the whole trans thing makes life so much harder for me but at the same time I don’t feel myself as a man or Thomas. I just want to be at peace