I think people given up on me.

Idk about yall but it just gets harder and harder to stay up now a-days including starting projects. Been trying to improve drawing but every time I’m about to start I physically get a little sick and end up procrastinating/ doom scrolling the entire day. It’s not just drawing either it’s so much other things too. Idk why this keeps happening. Not only that but every time I try to explain my entire situation I constantly forget some details annnnnnnd ngl every time I try to make it clearer and clearer everyone tells me that my situation is out of reach and my mentality needs major help. Ngl it genuinely feels like no one understands me, and I know that a lot of people, though they won’t say, have given up on me.