Is it bad that I don't mind my scars?

I've been cutting for years now. A few are a bit deep, most are shallow but still leave scars.
I'm too scared to tell my friends or anyone else... but I think my scars and even fresh cuts are quite pretty. I don't want them to be pointed out though.
I just wish someone would look at them and hold my hand and tell me they think they're pretty too.
This isn't a kink thing or a sexual or romantic thing. I just... I just want someone to love me too. I wish someone would look at them without concern, anger, or sadness. I want someone to love them too.
Whenever I cut, it's like a smoke break (I don't smoke or do any substance though.) Today when I did it, I had to close my eyes and whisper to myself "That feels nice..." because it does! It lets me feel some sort of relief from all the big feelings up in my head. Today was an awful day...
I don't particularly want to show people my self harm scars or cuts. I wish I had someone that wouldn't shame me for them though. I hate that people make such a big deal out of it.
Again, this isn't a kink thing. It's nothing of that nature.