I really love crystal meth, and don’t know if I can quit yet

Hey, 19m here I made some posts about how I was scared since I tried meth one time. Since then I bought just a 3.5 and it lasted me almost 5 days or so, smoking and snorting it. I went into meth psychosis while driving home from work one night, I freaked out seeing stuff on the side of the road crawling out into the road. (I get off at 6am, so it was dark out) anyways I also became a zombie or at least felt like one at one point, since I figured I’d need more to get though work so I snorted an unknown amount. I’ve been off it for about 3 days but I’m so ready to take it again, I’ve been thinking of injecting too.

But I’m also a little scared of what’s going to happen to me, I know meth is a pretty hard substance, and I’ve seen what it does to the brain. I’m not sure if I really want to quit but that would just be my fault, I’m nervous to try and quit too. I’ve had withdrawals from it recently and they are not pleasant at all. My dads told me about his experience with the drug but I also don’t know how true they are, if anyone who has further expertise in the drug could tell me some stuff about it, or how it has affected them I’d love to hear it. It might be the encouragement I need.