I'm just a bit tired

I'm so sick of dealing with loneliness, i just want someone who understands me

And i'm saying that as someone who never cared about being alone most of the time since i've been like that for almost all my life, but for the first time in my life, maybe like 2 months ago i started feeling really alone, it's hard knowing you can't do anything yet,

so desperate that i imagine myself having actual friends that i don't even have but i'd like to

terrible lol