Want to interview at Google, but struggling to get over the mental barrier

I've had this dream for a while — I'd really like to work at Google someday, ideally as an Engineering Manager or Solutions Architect.

The weird part is that I'm actually doing pretty well at my current company. I'm probably one of the better performers, my job is secure, and honestly, I don't need to change jobs. But working at Google is something I've wanted to try at least once.

The problem is I haven't given a proper interview in a really long time. I also don't code in my day job anymore — I technically lead a bunch of senior engineers, and most of my time goes into technical direction, architecture, design discussions, decision-making, and mentoring. So the idea of suddenly prepping for coding rounds + system design + EM/leadership interviews feels pretty daunting.

I think I've also put Google on a bit of a pedestal in my head. I keep thinking:

- What if I'm not good enough?
- What if I fail the interview?
- What if I've been away from coding for too long?

And because I'm comfortable where I am, there's no real pressure forcing me to do it. But then I also think... what do I actually have to lose? If I fail, I still have a good job. Nothing really changes.

So I'm trying to figure out how to just say f*** it and take the shot. 😅

**For people who've interviewed at Google, especially for EM or Solutions Architect roles:**

- How did you prepare if you hadn't interviewed in years?
- If you weren't coding in your day job, how did you get back into it?
- How much coding should I realistically expect for EM / SA roles?
- Would you prepare for a few months before applying, or just apply and see what happens?
- How did you get over the fear of failing?

Would especially love to hear from people who were already doing well in their careers and comfortable where they were, but still decided to take a shot at Google. I feel like I just need to stop overthinking it and play fearless for once.

Any advice?