What do you do when you’ve messed it all up?

What do you do when you’ve messed up everything in your life? Honestly I’m not looking for advice just needed to vent somewhere other than my head. I fucked up in so many ways and I know it. I don’t know necessarily know why, I don’t like the pain I’ve caused, or the person I’ve been but at times it just feels like I’m on auto pilot watching the crash happen. If you’ve made it this far for some reason take some advice from someone who wishes they could do it all over, make the right choice and do the hard thing. Whatever that may be for you, kick the habit, have the hard conversation you’ve been avoiding, get the help you need, make the change you’ve been putting off. Whatever it is, do it before you no longer have the chance.