Vent so bad it's nsfw

I feel like all my efforts to help people are useless. I feel like a fucking burden to everyone. I want to vent to people but it makes me feel like even more of a burden every time. I'm really questioning just cutting myself untill I pass out. Thinking about taking my life for good. And just shooting myself. I want to blow my fucking brains on the wall. Sorry this is so gruesome, I'm fucking tired. I just needed to put this somewhere people who might know me will see. I love you all.