Thinking out loud

I found out they will pay you to donate plasma. I can't keep going with no income.

I was wondering if someone in my area would be willing to drive me to donate.

I would cover gas and give you some money for the time.

I know I can drive there but...

It takes 3 hours and I have POTs.

I'm worried about driving afterwards.

I don't think it would be safe.

But, like I said ... I don't have other options.

I don't know if I'll get a reply.

I don't know if anyone would be willing.

I don't know if this is the right place to ask.

I'm going to try it myself and see how it goes.

Maybe that's for the best ... idk...

Anyways...

I need to find a way.

At this point.

I'm worthless.

Just a burden.

I'm tired of being a burden.

I'm tired of being worthless.

Maybe I'm just tired of "being."

If it weren't for my beautiful babies.

I don't know...

They are my heart and soul.

Seeing them smile.

The hugs n kisses.

The moment.

You realize why.

Being a parent is a blessing.

I like to believe that they chose me.

To be their father.

Ya know?

Idk...

Depression speaks with a forked tongue.