f15 : hearing voices, severe paranoia and dissociation and my parents won’t let me see a psychiatrist

my mental health has been getting really bad and i don’t know what’s happening to me
i’ve been struggling with my mental health for a while but it’s gotten a lot worse recently and i’m honestly getting scared of some of the things i experience

i have really severe paranoia sometimes and i’ll become convinced that something bad is going to happen or that people are trying to hurt me even when i don’t really have evidence for it. i also hear voices sometimes that other people don’t seem to hear. they can be really aggressive and make me panic, and sometimes i have a hard time knowing what’s real and what isn’t

i also experience a lot of dissociation/derealization and feel detached from myself or my surroundings. sometimes my thoughts feel really strange or my mind feels completely empty

i already have a history of depression and anxiety, but i’m worried that this could be something more and i really want to get properly evaluated instead of trying to diagnose myself

the biggest problem is that my parents refuse to take me to a psychiatrist because they’re scared of me being put on medication or being hospitalized. my mom has some trauma surrounding this because something similar happened with her uncle, so i understand why she’s scared, but it’s also making it really difficult for me to get evaluated

i haven’t been diagnosed with schizophrenia or anything like that, which is why i’m trying to get an actual professional opinion

also i’ve been having really bad memory problems and brain fog and it’s starting to scare me. i’m forgetting things really easily and recently i’ve even been struggling to recognize people’s faces or remember who certain people are. i usually KNOW that i know the person, but it’s like my brain can’t actually process their face or connect it to who they are

i also struggle to understand really simple things sometimes because i genuinely feel like i can’t think. my brain just feels completely blank and it takes me way longer than it should to understand things or form thoughts. it’s really frustrating because i know i’m not stupid i just genuinely feel like my brain isn’t working properly anymore

i’m mainly wondering how i can convince my parents to let me get evaluated because i don’t want medication or hospitalization to be the assumption. i just want someone qualified to actually listen to me and figure out what’s happening

i’m not asking reddit to diagnose me i just want to know if anyone has gone through something similar and how you got evaluated