Tbh, the environment surrounding TADC is painful for me. But I can’t bring myself to hate the show (I’m Japanese)

Tbh, the environment surrounding TADC is painful for me. But I can't bring myself to hate the show (I'm Japanese)

First, I'm certainly not representing Japanese fans. but I would also like to apologize in advance for my poor English.

I first encountered this show shortly after the pilot was released. Pomni’s cute design was generating a rare buzz in Japan—a country where Western cartoons don't typically become major hits—and as someone who already loved cartoons, I remember watching it and thinking, "Wow... I wonder what's going to happen next"
(Pomni was highly popular among men, while Jax was highly popular among women)

After the pilot, I stopped watching because I was a bit put off by how popular Pomni had become (I tend to be a contrarian, after all)
however, upon hearing the buzz about the finale getting a theatrical release, I binged all the episodes released so far—and ended up falling in love with a particular ship(Jax is one half of that ship)
I also enjoyed the show itself.

Although published online, a manga adaptation of the main story was serialized in "CoroCoro Comic"—a highly renowned Japanese magazine for children (famous for having serialized Doraemon and for popularizing the names of Pokémon)

Although there was some online controversy—including issues with leaks—the final episode has finally begun its worldwide release. It was released in Japan as well, but since it wasn't screened in my area, I had no choice but to wait for the streaming release.

In the time leading up to the release, I spent my days drawing fan art. Perhaps because TADC is so famous, I was happy that so many people saw my art, despite my limited skills.
Then, Episode 9 was released. I found myself in tears—moved by the story, yet overcome with sadness.
For a while after watching it, the sadness weighed heavily on me; I couldn't eat properly, and as soon as I got home from work, I would just lie down. I might have been in a state of mild depression.

As time passed, I gradually calmed down and began to notice a few points I wasn't entirely convinced by. nevertheless, I can say that I enjoyed the show to the very end, ship too.

However, the content of the finale sparked something of a backlash online...
What was hardest of all, though, was the fact that the pairing I loved was intensely disliked within the fandom (though, of course, there were fellow fans and people who appreciated the fan art)

It was a phenomenon often seen in fandom activities—the experience of discovering various previously unknown facets of a work as one becomes deeply immersed in it.
And since TADC was reaching the milestone of its final episode, I feel that these sense of significant movement was even more pronounced.

At one point, I felt that engaging in fan activities might actually be hurting Gooseworx, and I even considered leaving the fandom altogether. I still harbor those feelings today.

What hurts the most is the hate directed at the ship... I try my best to make full use of platform features like muting, but it’s still painful when I happen to come across those kinds of opinions (though of course, everyone is free to have their own preferences regarding the ship)

My heart also ached at the news of how things have been going for Goose over the past few days.

There are still plenty of fan art pieces I want to draw or have in progress. Sometimes I think it might be easier to just stop being a TADC fan altogether, but in the end, I simply can't bring myself to hate the show or the ships.
Lately, there’s been a growing amount of hate directed at Jax, which makes things even tougher.

Is there anyone else in the same situation or feeling the same way? And if that is same of you, how do you come to terms with those feelings?
You could dismiss it as "just fandom activity," but it is actually quite difficult to come to terms with it emotionally.

Edit: I’m sorry, although the title contains the word “hate”, this post is by no means intended to express any kind of hatred. I didn’t mean to use a word with such strong connotations. It’s more a case of, “I still love this programme and can’t bring myself to give it up”