I just found out I’m Pregnant. Abortion would be best but I can’t mentally go through that.

How? What do I do? I’m not being dramatic, I don’t think I could do that. Even tho I support abortion and in pro choice. I had severe preeclampsia with my last and I already have 3 kids under 6. My husband is an idiot and was drunk and didn’t realize the condom fell off. I cried like crazier and got emergency contraception. Clearly didn’t work. I had a miscarriage and I still think about baby. Like I really can’t do this. My youngest is 8 months old.