Is gooning a sin?

Hi everyone, I’ve been battling with guilt for so long.. I’ve been hypersexual ever since I was little, for literally as long as I can remember..

And I’ve always felt guilt and shame and wrong and sinful for it..

I wanna be able to accept myself like all of you.. I feel guilty even saying that though..

it’s just so harddd

Idk what to do.. idk what’s right..

feeling horny is natural right? But why does it make me feel guilty? I feel so lost and alone in this..

A part of me wishes I could just throw myself into the deep end with all of u and the other part wants to hide away in the corner.. I feel so conflicted and confused and lost.. I need help..

I tried edging and worked for a little bit but I feel like the guilt is hitting harder now.. maybe I’m doing it wrong idk..