They make me look very old and sick, and alter my appearance. Does anyone else experience this?

I’m a female in my 30s and throughout the past 9 years that I’ve been targeted, they’ve intermittently made me look 15 plus years above my actual age, while altering my face and appearance at the same time. They also make me look sick by making me very underweight regardless of my caloric intake and making my skin extremely dry and coarse, as if I’m a cancer patient going through chemo. It’s like they have the ability to remotely manipulate the state of my body and skin with the weapons they have access to. I know that it’s because of them and not naturally occurring because they would confirm it in v2k all the time and also give me days where my body would look normal temporarily.

Because of the situation with my skin and body, I feel like I’m being judged and get weird looks wherever I go. It doesn’t help that I’m also an introvert with social anxiety. I basically avoid being around people whenever I can nowadays, and for the times that I have to leave the house, I make sure to put on a face mask and a hat. This whole thing is actually kind of fitting in relation to my targeting, because before the targeting took over my life, I used to be pretty attractive and I’ve always taken care of my body and appearance. It’s as if they saw what I cared about the most and decided to focus the targeting on that aspect of my life to maximize the damage.

It’s been 9 years already and it just feels like it gets more and more difficult with time to not give in to negative thoughts and impulses, if you know what I mean.

Can anyone relate with what I'm going through?